The Rainbow Connection

After that call I got yesterday for a job interview, another call came, this time from Sun Cellular. They called me last Monday but since I was out then, I told them I couldn’t go. I thought they gave up on me already, but they called about 30 minutes from my first call and got me an interview earlier today.

Needless to say, I was all nerves after that. I have no idea what to with interviews because I’ve never been interviewed for a job yet. I didn’t even volunteer for that mock interview during ORIENT2. I have to admit that I was mentally complaining about how things suddenly pick up from nothing to something, and I was wishing for some sort of “transition” from this. And then I stopped short, because I happened to read one of my recent posts…and to quote myself: “This is an uprooting and I should be thankful for it…because it would make me grow. So…bring it on, Lord!“

And then I was like…Tina, you’re so fickle minded. Which is true. I was just telling Him to bring it on and after a few days of inactivity, I gave up on i already and when things picked up, I suddenly balked. I’m so hardheaded sometimes and I really find it amazing how God still sticks with me all throughout this. :) Amazing.

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To our not so little Prince

One of my favorite stories about you is the first time I got to talk to you. It was during your camp, and I was asking you if you were okay because you seem pissed off or something. Your reply totally left me a big impression, and I didn’t talk to you as much after that. :P I think it went something like this: Okay lang ako…bakit mo tinatanong? Ayoko nang tinatanong ako kung okay ako. =))

It’s one of my favorite stories because I don’t think people would believe that about you anymore. You’ve changed so much from the first time I met you, and I know you know that. Sometimes I really can’t believe that you used to be that quiet guy who I’d often find at the tambayan studying quietly (and truth be told, I don’t really talk to you that much because of that impression back in camp :p). I’m sure a lot of people agree with me on this. :D And when you were placed in my household, I have no idea how I’m going to talk to you.

But you know what? I believe that everything was in God’s plan. Two reasons. First is because He wanted me to learn how to take care of people who didn’t leave a nice impression on me at first, to teach me that first impressions don’t last, and two, He wanted me to see how He works in other people besides me. You were (and still is) a proof of how God can bring out the best in people. You never fail to make us “oldies” smile because we know that you allowed God to mold you and continue to mold you into a person that you are and you will become. It was a big blessing for me to be able to witness you grow up in your faith, because when everything seemed like a failure, God used you to remind me that it’s never a failure. :)

I could go on and on and on, but this might end up being the longest birthday greeting I’ve ever made here (so far this greeting holds the record for the largest image :p) and I might run out of space. :P So I’ll cut this short now, by saying…HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCE DARHYL ANTHONY RYAN! =) I thank God for making our paths cross and I pray that this God-centered friendship/sisterhood-brotherhood we share will last for many many more years. May God fill your twentieth (Haha, you’re as old as I am na! :P) year with even more blessings than the past year. :) You will always be the Prince in my life (haha, kung sino man yung para sakin, si Prince Charming, so iba ka pa rin). May you grow more in love with God (haha, boldfaced for emphasis) and may He grant you your heart’s desires…may you grow to be the man of God we all pray you become…and may you never lose that smile and cheerfulness that I have seen you put on since the day I met you. :)

Okay, I’ve talked long enough. See you on Friday, I think. I’ll always be here for you, Princester. :) God bless! Waboo! ♥

Nerves.

I was just scheduled for a job interview on Friday morning. And I’m scared.

Just the other day I was thinking of how my life is going to be in the future. I have to admit that I am seriously starting to enjoy staying at home and being with my family and being available to help anyone to needs help. Being free to visit DLSU and attend some prayer meetings, and all that. I’m not minding being a “bum” anymore, at least for now. Besides I still have some freelance work to finish, and I’m quite content with this.

Plus the fact that I feel like I’m looking for a job just because I want to say that I have a job and I’m earning a living and all that…I asked myself: why are you searching that way? Shouldn’t you be searching and aiming for the thing that you want to do for the rest of your life? And so I decided to do just so…because life’s too short for me to not start doing something I want to do for my life (and when I say what I want to do, I really mean what God wants me to do in my life — I believe that God’s will is indeed the deepest desires of my heart).

And then I get this call…and I’m all bothered again. I have to admit that having a job is a lovely idea, and at least I get to do something…but what if this job is not what I want to do for my life? To be honest, I have no idea with what the job being offered to me is. And I’m doing this because…well, the HR person who’s contacting us sounds really nice, and it’s kind of hard to say no to her. Okay, let’s not forget the experience of being interviewed and all is there too.

Argh. I feel really shaken because of this. I’ve already said yes, and I guess I’ll be going, but I’m just afraid. With the interview and the entire idea of actually having a job already. If I get accepted here, I might start working by August because I put that in my application (unless they say otherwise). And August is what, next week already? I’m not ready!!! Well, not yet.

BUT…who says I’m accepted already? I think I’m afraid because I’m basing it on the thoughts that I will get this job. And I haven’t yet. I’m thinking of the future all over again; I really should stop that. ONE DAY AT A TIME, TINA!

Whew. I just needed to rant that out. Back to freelance work. I’ll think of this AFTER I finish this module.

Hello, Java

I’m doing something I never thought I’d be doing again (until I got a new and faster laptop that is): I’m downloading the latest Java SE Development Kit (JDK 5.0). And when this is done (hopefully within the day before I run out of Internet), I’ll be downloading the latest NetBeans too.

Now to those who know me since college, you know that if there’s a programming language that I don’t like, it’s Java. It’s been almost two years since I last touched Java, and the last time I did that, I was crying my eyes out because of darn frustration (Hello WEBDEVE and JSF days). Though I did kind of liked JSP (which reminds me, I’ll also get Resin installed here), I still disliked the entire Java thing. It made my computer slow, and there’s so much that you have to know to be able to make a program that would run okay on a normal computer (like mine). Ever since then, I swore off Java and I told myself that I’d stick to PHP and whatever other language there is, as long as it’s not Java.

But here I am, eating my words. As I was thinking about it yesterday, most companies today are in search for people who know Java. I know a bit of it, but I won’t choose it over other languages that I know of. However, I figured that it wouldn’t hurt me (as much) if I go and re-learn Java all over again. I have two choices with this: I could go on and hate everything about Java, or at least try to make friends with it again (after swearing it as an enemy around junior year in college). The latter would be a better choice, and I have nothing to lose anyway.

My first project: I shall revive my OBJECTP days and try to remake my old Battle City Machine Project. :) (FYI: Yes, we had to make our own version of Battle City, that Family Computer game, back in freshmen year. I finished it halfway, but it’s not working well. Haha. I can shoot the enemies but they don’t disappear. :D Oops. ^^; ) And since I don’t have a copy of the old one, I’ll be doing it from scratch, I think. :P

Even if I’m done studying and I’m still unemployed, who says I should stop learning too? So with God’s grace, I will learn Java and eventually, I will learn to like it as well (no love first, that’s too soon :p). Yeahbah. :)

In a lot of ways, I’m just like you

Yesterday was a busy day for me and my feet are paying for all the walking I did. Late last Tuesday night, I got a call from Isla Lipana & Co, asking me to go to their office for an exam because they were considering me for a position. And because I have nothing better to do, I decided to go ahead. In the same night, I also submitted my application to other companies I’ve been meaning to apply to. Talon lang! :)

So Wednesday morning, I headed over to the shuttle service at our village’s gate to ride to Makati. It’s been a long time since I last rode there — more than a year ago. As I rode the FX, I felt kind of shaken because I realize that once I really do start working, I’d have to wake up this early to get to my office always. If it’s in Makati; I’ll be riding there, if it’s in Ortigas or somewhere else it’s a different route…but I’d be waking up that early again. I’d be going out 5 days a week to work…and you know what I really thought of? I’ll be missing most of my Disney shows in the morning. Haha, shallow, I know.

But I think it’s a good thing too…I just have to get used to it, you know? This is an uprooting and I should be thankful for it…because it would make me grow. So…bring it on, Lord!

After a good lunch and long chat with some good friends, I headed home for Toni’s surprise at Figaro. I got to see some of my old high school friends again like Jessa and Jasper, who I haven’t seen for a long time. Toni had absolutely no idea with the surprise and it was nice to see his expression. I think the Figaro people were annoyed at our noise though. :P After finishing the cake, we went to Tiendesitas to eat again. I looked at the animals there and was sooooo in love with the big dogs they have there. ♥ And then we ate again, had some chats and then went home. It was tiring, but it was fun, and it proved that high school friends are indeed good friends…people who would be with you for a long time. We’ve changed, and but there is still a common bond there that makes us stick together, you know?

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