Welcome to the real world
Okay, no review for High School Musical (♥ ♥ ♥ ) yet. I’ll have it done later or tomorrow.
I realize how much things look different now that I’m out of school and am about to be employed. Though I still don’t have a definite employer (I’m praying for one though — care to pray with me?). :P Anyway, it’s just that now that school is indefinitely out of the way (who knows if I’ll study again?), I now get to look at other things, such as my family, their health and the future.
I’ve developed this philosophy in life while on my last term in college: I will not make any further plans in my life until I am finished with this part. “This part” is specifically pointed to my thesis. If you have been reading my blog before I erased the entries or if I know you personally, you know how much thesis occupied my time then. I wasn’t sure if I would be graduating on time so I refused to make any plans of what I will do after graduation (thank God I made it through :D I owe it all to Him, as always).
But now that it’s over, I sort of find myself at a bit of loss: what now? I sort of envy those other people who made plans and saw a definite path for their for their future. It’s not that I didn’t see anything for my future; it’s that I didn’t want to jinx anything. And yes, I know I shouldn’t believe in jinxes and all that. I’m three months smarter now, don’t worry. ;)
As I walked around Megamall with my family earlier, I realize how much there is to think about. Like, my work, my future, the things I want for my life, my health, how I should live, my family’s health, and all those things that adults suddenly think about. No wonder adults look…well, adult. You know? I guess it goes to all the thinking they do.
It scares me a bit lot. I still don’t know what to do, really. There’s so much I want to do and learn, that I should do and should learn, but I feel like I don’t have time to work on it. I feel like it’s too late, or there’s just no too much time. I don’t want to get caught in the monotony that life brings, especially when I start working. I don’t want to bring my OJT days back. I don’t want to see myself working for nothing everyday, working on something I don’t enjoy. I don’t want to make the wrong choices.
But then the wrong choices are also part of God’s will too, right?
And then God’s voice whispers to me again:
“I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.”
(Jeremiah 29:11, The Message)
*sigh* I trust You on this, Big Boss. There’s nothing else I can do but that.
I believe life is an adventure. A great adventure, as Steven Curtis Chapman sings. Well, then, let’s bring it on! Hello, welcome to my genesis.
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